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He told me He loved me
And my life scoffed
He said He’d never leave me
But I left Him first
Back and forth, up and down times a million
My mind going round and round
I couldn’t deal with Him
I mean, I wanted love, real love, soul love
But I just couldn’t believe Him
In and out
I couldn’t deal Him
He stood right there throughout the test of time
And I took Him for granted
I mean, I knew, I heard..
Ok. Ok ok
I just wanted love on my terms, ok?
I needed warm hugs and lies of I love you’s
Whispered in my ear
To feel the embrace of a man
And his pleasure
Take me to the rapture
Only to feel more like he only shot me to 7-eleven
I mean, 3 to 5 minutes is better than nothing at all, right?
Tell me I’m your girl
Along with telling me I’m one of your girls, but you..
You like me best so I’m on top
Man, I loved it when he teased me
But the pain when he beat me
Or I caught him with another girl because it was her turn
She got her food stamps that week
Since he ate up mine on the last
He’ll be back when that bottle of Paul come calling
Cause he know my payday coming up fast
Then I’ll get me some of that good loving
The problem is, it never lasts
Ghosted. Rejected. Abandoned
I can’t do nothing right
Laying in my bed in the middle of the night
Feeling like Melanie Fiona cause he won’t answer
And
I know he somewhere with a wanna be dancer
Now tears are streaming down my face
No one to embrace
Then... I..
I speak
To the one who is always there for me
Watching me get used and abused
Walking right up into chaos
He told me He still loved me
He said He was the only one for me
He sat there and listened to all my complaints and woes
Snot falling as I slid off the bed to the floor
He catches me and holds me close
I close my eyes, shut my mouth and just.. breathe
He wraps His arms around me and pulls me in so close
Whispering words that I’ve heard before
But not the same type of heard before
It’s the kind where you got to hear it again cause it’s so solid
It’s the truth, it’s right
He told me to stop cheating and come back home
Cause no matter what, I’ll always belong to Him
He opened His hand, and I saw my name written right in the center
Then He told me He’d never let me go
But I had to come back to Him and only Him
Cause the other dudes out there
Were only set ups to bring my life to an end and
He just can’t sit back and let that happen
So no, none of them will ever choose me
Because being with them is not where I’m supposed to be
I just sat back, leaned in Him, and listened to everything He wanted to say
Then I remembered the love letters He wrote me everyday
All compiled in a book
Chapter and verse
Every promise He made and yep,
Every vow that I took
I bowed my head and just gave in
I knew I had to go back home to Him
I’m done trying to find love my way
I’m tired of getting abused, ridiculed, and worn out after every passing day
Misused, rejected
Abhorred, neglected
All that ain’t love and I want to know what is
I’m going Home to the one who stood the test of time
He said He was my real husband, my faithful friend
He is the only one that never gave me any reason to doubt Him
I finally choose
Him.
You didn’t ask me what His name is
But I’ll tell you
Yahshua HaMashiach by way of Yahuah Elohim.
By Val
08/19/2025
